hi friends! i'm back, and i wanted to say thank you to everyone who left me sweet messages, tweets, and emails yesterday. you guys are the best! monday was a pretty rough day for me and my ocd. we had to have someone come repair our bathtub, and even though i tried my best to prepare, i had a complete break down after he left. it just felt like my entire bathroom had been contaminated, and even though i used a ridiculous amount of bleach, it still doesn't feel quite clean. that's the nature of this beast, though, and some days are really hard to survive. i'm sure we all know the feeling of good days and bad days, of huge victories and utter failures. life is a struggle, a roller coaster ride of ups and downs, but i think that's also precisely what makes life so beautiful. it really is just like that cliched analogy of how a caterpillar must struggle to become a butterfly.
one of my favorite books of all time is hope for the flowers,* by trina paulus. have you read it? it's short, easy to read, and absolutely lovely. it's also an amazing look at the eternal struggle to overcome fears, to choose growth over stagnation, to follow the path which will bring YOU true happiness, and to hang on to that hope that lies within all of us - basically everything that makes up life.
we were assigned this book as a part of my young adult psychology class back in undergrad. i went to the bookstore and for some reason began reading it right there in the spirituality/psychology section. i was going through a really difficult time in my life at the time and this book touched me in such a deep way. i ended up reading the entire thing in the store, crying the entire time. i'm sure i was quite the sight - a blubbering, weeping, 20 y.o. girl reading a bright yellow, childrens-looking book in the middle of barnes and noble! but i didn't care. that book was speaking to my soul and i was taking the time to listen.
i've recommended this book to so many other people since that day. we all have a butterfly within us, and even though it's overused, i still love using this analogy to see where we are in the growth process. are you already flying high or are you doubting you'll ever grow your wings? are you currently working hard to build your cocoon or are you struggling to climb out of it? or maybe you're in the gestation phase, resting before the struggle?
whatever the case, i wish all of us the best as we move forward in this crazy journey of life.
* UPDATE - whoops! i meant to add that this only looks like a children's book. it's actually a book meant for adults... although i guess we all have kids inside of us, so maybe... :)
* UPDATE - whoops! i meant to add that this only looks like a children's book. it's actually a book meant for adults... although i guess we all have kids inside of us, so maybe... :)
What a beautiful post. It reminds me of the butterfly quote I recently had. : ) I've never heard of this book.. definitely going on my to-read list now! Thank you.. I always love finding out about new and interesting books.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you had such a difficult day yesterday. I really hope your bathtub starts feeling like a clean and comfortable place again soon.
I requested this book from the library and can't wait to share it with my daughter. :)
ReplyDeleteI haven't thought about that book in ages. Just added it to my book list.
ReplyDeleteI loved this book -- you recommended it to me at the perfect time. And I'm sorry to hear you had such a rough Monday. The week will get better. Promise. Keep working on it and you'll come out of your cocoon and be a butterfly too.
ReplyDeleteOfficially adding it to my list!
ReplyDeleteI've never even heard of this book but it sounds absolutely wonderful. I'll have to look for it next time I'm at the book store!
ReplyDeleteNever heard of this book either - love it though, will have a look at amazon for it. Great post Kimbirdy - I adore your blog as usual :O)
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Hey girl! I just got caught up on your OCD post and now this one. You poor thing! How incredibly hard it must be to go day to day with such a struggle. You seem so happy and carefree... I am sorry that you have to go through life with OCD making your life not as wonderful as it seems :( Thank you so much for the 7 things post. I don't know a lot about OCD but you did a great job of describing it so it was not only relatable, but understandable. I wish you relief for your ocd and thank you so much for your honesty. You're a tough girl xoxox
ReplyDeleteI can't wait to check out this book! I'm sorry to hear about your bad Monday...but I'm always inspired by how you take it one step at a time and overcome it. You're seriously so inspiring, Kim! :)
ReplyDeletei've heard about this book but i've never seen it in person...i'll have to see if my library has it!
ReplyDeleteSorry about the bathroom. They are so personal and should be the epitome of clean.
ReplyDeleteThis book sounds fantastic. It is amazing how profound children's books are.
This book sounds beautiful. I used to work in children's publishing (many moons ago) and I always loved the many life lessons that existed in books intended for kiddies. I'm embarrassed to admit I haven't heard of this one yet. I hope you're doing much better today, girl.
ReplyDeleteSending great big *HUGS* your way and hope this finds you well in body and in mind.
oh sorry, i meant to say that it's NOT a children's book. it's a book for adults. and an amazing one at that! :) i'll go add an update.
ReplyDeleteFor about 3 years I only read children's books. sometimes YA novels. But a good picture book is hard to find. So while this book is perhaps made for "grown ups" I like the idea that it's for kids :)
ReplyDeletehehe what a cute cover!! def seems like an inspirational book!!
ReplyDeleteI don't know this book, but I want to! I'm putting it on my Amazon wishlist now.
ReplyDeleteHere's to a way better day today!
Love this! I may have to look this book up. It sounds so inspring. Crying in a bookstore.... I've been there. Hope you're doing well today and thank you for your honesty and open words. Thinking of you Kim!
ReplyDeletesounds like i need that book! don't worry, i probably would've cried reading that book in college too. i was very much in a vulnerable state then...with relationships, with life and growing up. but anyway, yea i must read!
ReplyDeleteI understand the fears and struggles you write about because I have my own manifestations of it. Life is weird like that. I feel like there is so much I still have to do and accomplish to feel whole.. What saves me is gratitude.. I'm still learning..
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you had to go through that, Kim. Hope you are feeling better. Thank you for this book recommendation. I've never heard of it and am going to look for it the next time I head to the local bookshop. xo.
ReplyDeleteI've never heard of this book, but I'm definitely going to pick it up soon!
ReplyDeleteI still find myself at times struggling to climb out of my comfort zone. I pray/hope that one day I will do it without any fear residing inside of me!
my sister always talks about this book (she works at a child advocacy center). i need to read it!
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